Sixth Day of the Fifth Umbral Moon
Today was… long. Hard. And not from fighting. I didn't do any of that, today. But gods, if I've ever had a longer, more tiresome day, show it to me now. A lot to think about…
No one really cares, do they? That I’m Ala Mhigan? There was such a pride inside the city, I just assumed that was normal everywhere. Is it not? I’m Ala Mhigan. It means I’m strong. Honorable. Courageous. But if that doesn't matter, what am I? If I don’t have any of that to live up to, then… then I’m only me. I don’t want to only be me… “Me†is weak, he can’t protect anyone. Not really. “Me†is deceitful. “Me†is a coward.
...Maybe I’m all of those things, regardless.
I need to stop this bloody sulking! People are going to see it! Then they’ll… what will they do? Really, I forget, sometimes, why I save face. Because they’ll think I’m weak? Soft? Pathetic? Bah. They’d be right.
No! No, I need to stop this! I’m only weak because I keep this sulking! I need to think of how to help myself. No else will do that for me. I need to be strong. Not because I’m Ala Mhigan. Because… because why? I’ll figure that out some other time, I guess...
Today was… long. Hard. And not from fighting. I didn't do any of that, today. But gods, if I've ever had a longer, more tiresome day, show it to me now. A lot to think about…
No one really cares, do they? That I’m Ala Mhigan? There was such a pride inside the city, I just assumed that was normal everywhere. Is it not? I’m Ala Mhigan. It means I’m strong. Honorable. Courageous. But if that doesn't matter, what am I? If I don’t have any of that to live up to, then… then I’m only me. I don’t want to only be me… “Me†is weak, he can’t protect anyone. Not really. “Me†is deceitful. “Me†is a coward.
...Maybe I’m all of those things, regardless.
I need to stop this bloody sulking! People are going to see it! Then they’ll… what will they do? Really, I forget, sometimes, why I save face. Because they’ll think I’m weak? Soft? Pathetic? Bah. They’d be right.
No! No, I need to stop this! I’m only weak because I keep this sulking! I need to think of how to help myself. No else will do that for me. I need to be strong. Not because I’m Ala Mhigan. Because… because why? I’ll figure that out some other time, I guess...
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