(02-18-2016, 01:35 PM)Roen Wrote: I worry that when I RP with people, that I am expected to bring some plot development to that particular scene. I don't always have the overall arc in mind, nor some significant plot development every scene every step of the way. Sometimes I too enjoy a little slice of life. But I don't do it often enough.
And when I really think about it, I do believe that people don't have this expectation of me, it's what I hold for myself. But it does sometimes discourage me from scheduling RP with a few folks, because I don't have that "next idea."
I also know people who have their characters thought out every step of the way. I don't... do this. I know who my characters are at their core, but I have not thought out every minute details of their day or their subconsciousness. I admire people who can and has done this, but I rarely know my own self that well, much less my characters. I react on instinct to a situation. But sometimes I feel like that is not in depth enough.
I can also be quite insecure about my writing. Less so in posts where I can think about word choices, edit and edit again and mind the flow of the narrative. No, it's the live fly by the seat of your pants RP where I look at some other people's word choices and go... "damn, that was a really good description." Then wonder why I don't think up something that great on the spot.
But at the end of the day, I do enjoy RP and crave it when I am away from it for too long. So I try not to overthink things and just try and have fun.
Story of my life. ;-;
I forever worry over whether my replies were as good or interesting, especially when someone response with a large paragraph I rather enjoyed. This only gets worse in group dynamics because I have difficulty keeping up with a scrolling chat box. I'm just far too accustom with 1v1 or the occasional small group.
For whatever it may be worth though, I really like Roen.Â
Another insecurity I didn't mention earlier is my tendency to be a bit verbose. Given Cassandra's backstory as having a noble of sorts upbringing, and the game itself throwing around words you don't often see elsewhere, I often work it into my own replies; primarily in her dialogue. I, personally, love the style and always fall back into it if the world I'm working in allows for it, but at the same time... I can't help wonder if it annoys people or I come across snobbish.